Thanksgiving

Writing Group, 9-5-12: What I'll Never Forget

What will I never forget? Who is to say. 

I forget so many things I wish to keep with me--

I remember those I wish were lost.

This became abundantly clear a couple of weeks ago when my computer--

my computer full of five years worth of our family's life--

began to crash.

Frantically I started moving files, photos, videos, memories

and along the way I watched

Asher in utero,

crying, bathing, laughing, walking, talking....

Precious events from just two years ago

seemed brand new.

Where has the time gone?  

My second baby now the age of my first in these videos.

How did we get here?  

What am I already forgetting from today?

Panic.

and then

just

be 

here

now.

This morning was my morning to sleep in until 8:00.

I woke up gently to Bella at my door--

she always knows the time.

I was greeted downstairs with shouts of

"Momma, up!" Amelie

"I made a merry-go-round, want a ride?" Asher

"I made you Espresso, double-shot." Bill

The living room covered in blankets, pillows, dolls...

The air full of loud words, music, cartoons...

I take my seat on Asher's imagined ride--

Amelie takes a seat on my lap.

Asher begins playing the a song on the keyboard--

Amelie plays a different one on the ipad.

I find Bill's eyes & we laugh.

Beautiful chaos.